I Dreamed Too Small

IMG_0345Sometimes, small is good. Like our great little dog, who is a delight to have around. I never expected to have a dog EVER, but here I am with a dog that was rescued from the street. She may be small, but she’s still awesome in my book. But not all things should be small.

In last week’s Share Your World, there was a question a gift I’d like. As I will explain in this post, I decided I needed to revisit that question before going on to this week’s questions. I was surprised to realize that even when I know better, I still have a tendency to think small.

When Cee asked to consider what gift we would like to receive (anything). Upon thinking about it for a couple of days, I thought it would be great to have a place to pursue my quilting art and creativity for a period of time in a retreat or studio experience. Here is the question and my actual response from that post.

If you could be given any gift what would it be?

A year-long stay at a quilting/art colony with a fully stocked studio and access to fabric, as well as a couple other artists to brainstorm and collaborate with. But I could still be ecstatic with a month or two.Β  πŸ™‚

But then a couple days later, I was out walking, and that’s when it occurred to me that if I could choose any gift, I really should be thinking much larger. And I got caught on that post. Don’t get me wrong. I love quilting and art-making in general. I love making music. The idea of having a place where I could really pursue those activities is awesome. It’s the second part of the “gift” that I really missed. I mentioned that I would like a few other artists there with whom I could interact. Duh!

Many people have memories of doing creative things as a child. But we often put those things aside as we “grow up.” No time. Or we got the idea that we weren’t necessarily good at it. Or as we got older, we might have been told that there was no way to make a living with that kind of thing. Whatever the reason, we may have pushed artistic expression underground.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAI have been fortunate to rediscover some of my childhood passions as well as discover several new ones. I sometimes don’t give enough time and attention to these artistic pursuits, but I recognize their importance. As a result, I want to make adjustments in my life that open up my participation in creative expression.

My dream is to help people uncover or rediscover their artistic and creative dreams. I want to help people to want to dream big, whether it be starting a graphic design business, painting, designing clothing, woodworking, writing, illustrating, creating a unique restaurant, or something totally off the beaten track. Even if it can’t be done all at once, we can take baby steps toward getting creative expression in our lives, baby steps that put us in motion toward the big pictures.

When I first answered the gift question last week, I got so caught in the everyday aspects of life that I forgot to look at my big picture. By not having that in my line of vision, I asked for a gift that was nice, but was still limited–both in scope and in its influence.

My new answer to the question?

If you could be given any gift what would it be?

A residential retreat center with room for classes, studio space, and equipment to help myself and others find space to create and experience art in all its forms. And an assistant to help with all the administrative details, so that I can do creative coaching, teach classes, and explore artistic possibilities.

How often I limit myself from accomplishing what I could be doing by thinking small. The Farther to Go! exercises and materials has given me the tools to change that. I just have to keep focused on the ideas I’ve gotten along the way. If I do, I will remember that the path to a life rich in creative expression is to think big and keep moving on those baby steps.

269 Days to 60!


20 comments on “I Dreamed Too Small

  1. Your dog is just precious! I love your question and I would have to say the gift I would want would be to travel all over the world and see the sights I have not seen. This would have to be a generous giver because the cost would be terrible! No matter, after I saw all I could see, I would write about it all. Like you, I tend to think in “small” increments when it comes to receiving a gift. Thanks for the great thoughts!

    • Yeah, it was an interesting thing to think about because it’s much
      bigger than gifts. It’s limiting in terms of what we set up for
      ourselves. I realized that just having time to explore my own art was
      only a small part of what I want to accomplish. But it was easier to
      think small instead of “putting it out there.” I was surprised when
      those thoughts resurfaced after I had answered the question. That’s why
      I thought it was important to revisit it. Thanks, as always, for your
      comments. πŸ™‚

    • Thanks, Luanne! Now I’m going to get back to those baby steps. πŸ™‚ She is awfully precious. How can you not melt when you look at those eyes? πŸ˜‰

    • It’s funny. When I first answered the question, it was the usual “answer the question” thing. But wow, it just came back during that walk and wouldn’t let go. Revisiting seemed the only way to honor what was happening. I’m glad it’s helpful to you, too.

    • Sounds like a very smart Mom! πŸ™‚ I wish I’d thought to tell my children that. Although, in general, they’ve all done quite well. πŸ™‚ But what a great attitude to give one’s children. Kudos to your Mom and to you for listening. πŸ™‚

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